tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14900985676972479162024-03-13T13:02:20.241-04:00Life After...What's Next?Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.comBlogger270125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-52907867412744726052014-10-15T17:53:00.000-04:002014-10-15T17:54:34.026-04:0010 Promises from a Working Mom<div style="background-color: white;">
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Almost 6 weeks ago I put on some real pants (you know, the kind not of the yoga variety), packed up my breast pump and all of the confidence I could muster, and walked out the door. I drove to a job where I wear the title "Therapist" for 36+ kids, ages 5 to 18, who rely on me to ease the stress of their varying emotional disorders and trauma histories. I spend my days in therapy sessions, visiting schools, writing treatment plans, and talking frazzled parents off of the ceiling. And then I come home. I come home to an equally exhausted husband and two beautiful small children who need me to be ON.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Now that this whole working thing feels less "new" and more routine, I am able to step back and see the ways that this GIGANTIC life change has trickled down and impacted the various facets of my personal life. It hasn't been easy, big change never is. It has been scary and jarring, I continue to feel challenged and pushed and constantly wonder how I am going to make it all work. But I'm trying to go easy on myself - it feels unnatural as a woman to do just that, but I am trying. And in that process of trying I have decided to make a few promises to myself and to my family.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Norah has been exclusively breastfed her entire life. I am extremely proud of our nursing journey and would not take back any of the hard moments. With Jack, I supplemented with formula from 6 weeks on, but with NB? That emergency stockpile of formula has gone untouched. I was worried that working was going to screw everything up. Would I have time to pump? Could I pump enough? I am happy to report that so far, so good! But there are days when I will look down at the end of a pumping session and feel panic because I only got 2 ounces out of my left boob. There are days when I look at the clock and realize I FORGOT TO PUMP. But guess what? If I dry up, if I cannot supply enough, everyone is still going to be okay! I can overdose on fenugreek and squeeze in a midnight pumping session, but it won't make anything LESS stressful. Instead, I can roll with it. If there isn't enough milk for the next day, the nanny can thaw from the frozen stockpile. If the frozen stockpile runs out we can go from there... I will take deep breaths and remember that we are all going to be okay!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">I have found myself giving this big long explanation for why I am working. People find out that I have a baby and gasp with sadness that I have to be at work instead of home with my sweet precious little ones. But I am CHOOSING to work. And that is okay! I promise to own it. I am working because I LIKE to work. I am working because I feel passionate about what I do and it fulfills me in a way that being a mom does not. There is no need to make excuses and I don't owe anyone an explanation. As long as my family is good, I am good!</span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">3. I will not try to do it all.</span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Jack was the "Superstar of the Day" at preschool this week. It was exciting for him but it meant that I had to come home, come up with a "nutritious" snack for twenty 3-year-olds, think of clues for his "mystery bag" show-and-tell item, and write down his prayer request. I felt like I needed to go above and beyond! Jack had to have the best homemade snack and the cutest print out of clues! I spent all evening making everything perfect and when I finished both kids were asleep and I had spent maybe 5 minutes with them. Jack would have been fine and just as excited with a pre packaged snack and some handwritten clues. We all would have been better off if I had spent my time snuggling with him while watching a movie. I will not kill myself trying to be the do-it-all mom. Ain't nobody got time for that!</span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">4. I will make time for myself.</span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Because working is not an excuse to neglect my health (mental and physical). The 30 minutes I spend exercising will benefit everyone.</span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">5. I will make time for my marriage.</span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">When the clock hits 8:00 pm and both kids are asleep both John and I are ready to just check out. We are guilty of mindlessly watching things on TV and then before I know it, it feels like days have gone by where we haven't had a real conversation. I struggle with wanting to leave the house after being gone 40 hours a week but I refuse to not go on dates or make time for the number one most important job that I have. Being wife comes first, before mom and before professional. Time for date nights, baby!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">I am choosing to work. No one is holding a gun to my head. I don't get to feel sorry for myself when I miss milestones or don't make it to that class party. This is my choice and I need to own it.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">That being said... if I miss Norah's first steps or Jack's first choir concert, I am going to be sad, and that is okay too! Shedding a tear for the missed moments is going to be unavoidable, I will allow myself the time to grieve it out and let it go.</span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">8. I will turn off my phone.</span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">I made the mistake of leaving my work phone on over the weekend. Most days it doesn't ring past 5:00, but Sunday night it did. I didn't answer it, but I listened to the voicemail. It was a client, she was sobbing and begging me to call her back. I hurredly powered it down and threw it in my purse... Out of sight, out of mind? While I stood firm on my "no work on the weekends" boundary, I was thinking about that client for the rest of the night. I wasn't soaking in the last bits of an amazing weekend at home with my family, instead I was wondering if I could squeeze in one more quick morning appointment and if I could get a hold of my client's dad before he left for work. From now on, my phone is turned off.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">I'm tired at the end of a work day. I come home and the last thing I want to do is deal with a naughty 3-year-old who is bound and determined to get his own way. Some nights it would just be easier to give him what he wants and survive the evening. But I refuse to let my exhaustion and my work come at the expense of the best interest of my children. Jack (and eventually Norah too) needs to know that the standards are still high. Just because I am not home all day does not mean that manners or good behavior are optional. I need to come home every day ready to parent. I will say no, I will deal with tantrums, I will be patient, I will listen.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">Yesterday I came home from work to find John and Jack playing Memory on the living room floor while Norah happily played in her activity saucer. I dropped my bags to the kitchen floor and sat down next to them. Norah's face lit up and Jack excitedly told me about his day. I buried my face in fat baby rolls and spent the evening rolling around the floor playing peek-a-boo. We ate dinner in shifts, the house looked like a laundry bomb had gone off, and I sure as hell needed to be cleaning the bathrooms. But, I felt like my kids went to bed knowing that they were loved and that their little moments mattered. And to me, that was better than a family dinner and a clean house.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">I'm not even close to having it all figured out and I keep waiting for the day I will magically feel organized. But as every work day comes to a close, I feel this growing sense of normal. I know that I am in the right place and doing the right things for myself and for my family. I know that I am growing a professional life that will make me proud, and I hope one day it makes my kids proud too. I am a strong, capable, and loving wife and mother. I will be kind to myself. Every day is a chance to grow, and I know we are all going to be okay!</span></div>
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Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-6447095364314403262014-05-22T16:34:00.000-04:002014-05-22T16:50:27.450-04:00The Big Lie of WomanhoodLast night a childhood friend posted a status on Facebook that said something along the lines of. <i>"Apparently 25 means being surrounded by engaged and pregnant people." </i>This status had over 100 likes and 20 some comments that said things like, "we're having more fun!" and "follow your dreams and have more fun doing it!" and my personal favorite "27 looks like divorce" (OUCH!). While this is not the first statement I have seen, read, or heard from a fellow female my age, there is still that tiny part of me that questions my life choices and whispers, "Am I doing it all wrong?"<br />
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I can't help but feel shamed by the 11,000 Buzzfeed articles about what I <i>should</i> be doing in my twenties. Because I have not travelled to 50 different countries, started my own business, learned to play an instrument, and mastered a foreign language <i>apparently</i> I am a failure and shall be placed in the shameful corner of women that are <i>doing it wrong</i>.<br />
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And then again I can only assume that these publicly proclaimed exclamations of having WAY more fun without a husband or small humans to tote around stems from a similar place of insecurity. Constant relationship changes to "Engaged!" or "Married!" alongside adorable (okay, probably annoying) explosions of baby pictures is probably like a smack in the feminine face - with a similar feeling message. <i>You're doing it wrong. </i><br />
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So that's the catch, right? No matter what, as a woman, you always feel like you aren't right, that your decisions are flawed, and that you are failing social media and the rest of the world by either having or not having weddings and cute babies by age 27.<br />
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Here's my two cents: We have been sold a lie. From babyhood on, as females, we have been told one giant, enormous lie. We cannot, I am sorry to say, <b>have it all</b>. No one can. This seems to be particularly hard to stomach for our generation because we really just thought we could make it happen - but we cannot. History and society and culture for all of time has dictated that <i>no matter what</i> women will probably feel at least a tiny bit guilty or shamed or wrong if they choose to work instead of have a family, wait to have a family, or have a family and still work. Women are also likely to feel <i>judged </i> or <i>less than </i>in the eyes of the women listed above should they choose the opposite. The women who have families in their twenties or choose to stay at home with their kids will probably feel a tiny bit guilty or shamed or wrong for not being better "feminists".<br />
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You see, there is no winning. All we can do is support one another and let go of the who is right and who is wrong.<br />
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Despite the little nag of insecurity I felt after viewing the said Facebook status, mostly I was just inspired to ponder the changing definition of "fun". While traveling, building a career, getting drinks with friends, and living with girls instead of the same boy for forever and ever do sound great - my kind of fun has morphed into a walk around the neighborhood with my incredibly spirited and sweet 2.5 year old son. Fun is staring at my daughter's face for like 45 minutes straight and marveling at her pure and utter perfection. And mostly, fun is carving out a couple of quiet hours post 8 o'clock to sit and enjoy my husband on our back deck.<br />
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Is my fun more important than anyone else's? Nope. Does my fun sound horrible to someone else? Probably. But I've taught myself to love the life I have 90% of the time (because, I am human, and sometimes being a wife and mom sounds far less preferable to the independent life of a single woman in her 20's). We cannot have it all, we cannot be it all. We just need to be <i>okay</i> with that. At least 90% of the time...Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-54925307118013758922014-05-01T08:45:00.000-04:002014-05-01T08:45:03.749-04:00Surviving.<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjD7qez33nGfK07qI_IVghzLwZQ-HTcLyBfFFjtU8lziSerbZHfNVX_3hO6HqxiAFFgT4OzCIjvA53LB28NDcxdNQe_riyFJib_MqtOAFPN-KBcaQEZK5SoDsncaJj-RYMXKiNqe4UmHzOa/s1600/10246206_600492150038123_1191103052_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjD7qez33nGfK07qI_IVghzLwZQ-HTcLyBfFFjtU8lziSerbZHfNVX_3hO6HqxiAFFgT4OzCIjvA53LB28NDcxdNQe_riyFJib_MqtOAFPN-KBcaQEZK5SoDsncaJj-RYMXKiNqe4UmHzOa/s1600/10246206_600492150038123_1191103052_n.jpg" height="320" width="320" /></a>Yesterday was my first <i>official</i> day on the stay-at-home-mom train. Now that school is over, I have decided to put finding a job on the back burner for the summer and enjoy my new baby girl and get in some quality time with big brother Jack. And while I <i>hate</i> the idea of leaving Norah home with a nanny so young, I am <i>slightly</i> terrified that I will not survive this summer.<br />
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Do I love being a mom? Yes, absolutely. Looking at my little babes makes my heart explode 10 million times within the course of one hour. But I also find myself thinking, <i>"Oh my gosh, I have two kids!" </i>with equal parts amazement/joy and fear/whatthefuckhaveidone.<br />
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Perfect example: yesterday. By 9 AM I was sending SOS texts to my husband. By 10 AM I was online searching for jobs. I felt like I needed an extra arm, some xanax, and an IV drip of coffee. Just to go to the bathroom, <i>alone</i>, I had to endure angry newborn cries and Jack banging on the door screaming, "MOMMY!"<br />
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But, you know, we made it. So what, everyone was in their pajamas when John got home. Jack was running in circles, dying for some rough house time, and Norah was in a fit of gas-filled rage. But we got through the day.<br />
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So here we are, day 2. Both kids woke up at 6 AM and I have a raging headache, but, I feel more ready to <i>handle</i> the day. Last night I went to bed with the idea of a schedule. Routine is going to become my best friend. So bring on the Pinterest toddler activities and lets do this thing.Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-33079482218338252702014-04-29T12:00:00.000-04:002014-04-29T12:00:04.992-04:00"Proud"Last week, on Tuesday, I finished my master's degree. Holy hot damn - what a train wreck! When we calculated my due date 9 months ago, I knew this last month of school would be <i>insane</i>. I was right. After an all-nighter on Monday and a long day of class/work on Tuesday I thought I might die. But I made it, and Norah? She slept 5 hour stretches for the very first time, allowing me an <i>almost</i> full night of sleep.<br />
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The craziest part of it all is everyone that keeps coming up to me and saying how amazing I am for doing it all. I feel uncomfortable, but at the same time, I'm trying to be proud of myself. It wasn't easy. Only taking two weeks off after having a baby is less than ideal. Physically, mentally, emotionally I still needed to be in yoga pants on the couch. But that just wasn't in the cards. Part of me feels like I could have saved myself a lot of stress by getting papers and assignment completed ahead of time, and that because I didn't do that I don't deserve the kudos.<br />
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That's the joke right? We push and push and find success but we still don't feel like enough for ourselves? I am trying REALLY hard to recognize my accomplishments and pat myself on the back. I grew a baby for 9 <i>long</i> months. I endured constant nausea for 25 weeks, bladder infections, low blood pressure, low iron, and 7 days of contractions - I did all that while going to class/working, mothering a 2.5 year old (that weighs 36 pounds) and <i>trying </i>to actively participate in my marriage. We bought a house, moved, made this house a home... When I type it all out it feels like a lot. But it also sounds like I'm looking for pity... or something like it. None of this felt like it earned me a "badge of honor". It felt like living through the choices that I made.<br />
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I'm proud that I have my master's degree. It is the "step one" to having the career that I want and I am happy and excited (a little nervous too) about the future and where that aspect of my life is going. I also know that it will make me a better wife and mom because I will have this area of my life that fulfills me and fires me up individually and separately from my family.<br />
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It was a BIG year. It was exciting and crazy and absolutely flew by! I cannot believe it's over. I cannot believe that Norah is here, that graduation is on Friday, or even that summer is right around the corner. I'm taking this week to relax and rejuvenate. Next week we will settle into a new normal and start making a routine - but for now, I'm just going to watch E!, hold my baby, and work on feeling proud that we survived this crazy year.Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-24011254714791077472014-04-28T16:59:00.001-04:002014-04-28T17:01:22.240-04:00Norah BelleFive weeks ago our "new recruit" came into the world and I am so in love! After a full week of progress-less contractions and two "false alarm" trips to the hospital, I woke up out of a Benadryl induced sleep at 1 am and knew it was the "real deal". Ten hours later, our little lady was born and it was honestly the most amazing and relaxed labor/birth experience I could have ever imagined.<br />
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Jack is pretty smitten as well. He loves "Baby Or-uh" and pokes her in the face 4589234829 times a day. This whole family of 4 thing is quite the adventure, and I would not trade it for the world! </div>
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It's true, our family is growing! However, while my pregnancy with Jack seemed to last forever - my March 28th due date seems to be approaching at break-neck speed.<br />
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This space of mine has gone quiet, it's been easy to find other things to do. But I keep finding myself thinking that this time in our lives needs to be written down... documented.<br />
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This little plum-sized baby currently taking up residence in my body has been far from easy on me so far. I had to wave my white flag and call in for back-up (in the form of Zofran) at about 7 weeks, and still, the nausea creeps quietly in the waiting room- ready to strike if I stay up too late or don't eat every hour.<br />
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I feels surreal that in 6 months there will be a new child in our lives. A new baby to drink in - a new person to love overwhelmingly. I'm excited, I'm scared, and even a little anxious.<br />
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I suppose all there is to say is, bring it on!Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-33853183933474638692013-08-20T14:33:00.000-04:002013-08-20T14:33:21.122-04:00Two.<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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It's nap time around here and I just <i>tried</i> to settle a very excited little boy into his bed. He asked me to lay next to him (<i>"Mommy! Bed! Pillow!"</i>) and I snuggled in close and put my face next to his. I told him the story of when he was born - how he was the most beautiful thing Daddy and I have ever seen (to which he responded, "<i>yeah!"</i>). I told him about his thick black hair and deep blue eyes. I explained to him that he wore a blue hat (<i>"silly!"</i>) and he cried until I held him in my arms and rocked him to sleep (<i>"Baby Jack! Sleep!"</i>).<br />
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While two year old Jack seemed far from sleep, I gently crept out of his room and closed the door behind me. I felt compelled to watch the <a href="http://www.lifeafterblog.com/2012/08/we-made-it_20.html">video I made for his birthday</a> one year ago. The song in the background still resonates so true in my heart as a mother.<br />
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<i>all for love</i><br />
<i>we become </i><i>larger than lifesize, </i><i>wondersome,</i><br />
<i>great in the eyes of someone.</i><br />
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Jack is so great, so wondersome, in my eyes and I see the same affections reflected back at me, and at John, each day. I feel great in the eyes of my son, and there is no better feeling!<br />
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Although this little space on the internet has gone silent for over two months, I couldn't let this day pass by without celebrating this precious soul that I have been blessed to nurture. The amount with which he has grown and changed in this past year leaves me full of awe. I know that this will be a reoccurring theme as each birthday passes by, but it's still such a miracle to me!<br />
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This little child that lights up my life each morning, each day, and each night - he never stops surprising me. The amount that I love him has yet to stop growing. John and I often lay in bed at night and whisper to each other about our overwhelming love for this little boy. It is truly a gift.<br />
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<b>Happy second birthday my sweet John Henry. Every day with you is a day I treasure! </b>Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-60506863249352755782013-06-12T14:44:00.002-04:002013-06-12T14:44:41.643-04:00Leland Food & Wine Festival 2013If you combine my favorite place, my husband, wine, and good friends - you pretty much get an ideal summer weekend.<br />
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This past weekend John and I travelled 3.5 hours North to visit the Leland Food & Wine Festival with two other couples.<br />
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It was great to combine grad school friends, our husbands/future husbands, and some damn good booze.<br />
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My childhood summers always included a vacation to Leland and visiting Fishtown always brings back sweet feelings of nostalgia, incomplete without a North Shore sandwich from the cheese shoppe.<br />
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John and I firmly believe that taking time to be away, just the two of us, is key to keeping our relationship strong. This weekend was just what we needed!<br />
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For over a year I had looked in the mirror and thought, <i>I don't look that bad. </i>When I wore a one-piece all summer long for the first time in my life, I blamed it on being a mom. When my clothes (a whole size bigger than normal) got snug, I told myself it was no big deal. <i>Until it was.</i> </div>
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See, I gained about 15 pounds throughout college. Over the course of 4 years it didn't seem so bad. I had a lot of fun while I gained that weight! Then, in this past year, I gained 15 more. In ONE year I gained as much as I did in 4! So NOT okay. </div>
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<b>My short-term goal:</b> be in a bikini by May for our family vacation to the Virgin Islands. <b>My long-term goal:</b> be my best weight ever before getting pregnant again.</div>
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First came the food. I changed what we were eating. No fast food, less eating out, sticking to meal plans, less snacking... In one month I lost 5 pounds. </div>
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So I started working out. Tracy Anderson Metamorphosis Muscular Structure work 3-5 times a week & a 5k training program 3 times a week. </div>
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In two more months I had lost 5 more pounds, could run a 5k, and was feeling good. Even if running was still hard & most days I dreaded going, it made me feel great to be active!</div>
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I lost 5 more pounds. I felt great at my cousins wedding. And best of all? I wore a bikini on vacation. </div>
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So here we are. Post vacation (3 weeks past vacation actually...) and I have met a firm plateau of 15 pounds and 14 inches lost. </div>
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I'm ready to shed these last 15 pounds. I have started amping up my exercise and hope to be running a 10k by the end of the summer! We are diving head first into clean eating over here and I hope to find some self-control on the weekends! </div>
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The biggest change for me in the past 5 months has been learning discipline, letting myself cheat, and making sure that this is a lifestyle change that will last. There have been bad days and bad weeks. There have been times when I have surrendered to crap food and not worked out for two weeks straight.</div>
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I know this post was long, but I wanted to share my story in hopes of inspiring other people to make a change, motivate those who are in the process of changing, and mostly just because I am proud of myself and ready to take on the second half of my goals! </div>
Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-71113311832134656502013-06-05T08:21:00.001-04:002013-06-05T08:21:22.304-04:00Baby-Toddler Limbo<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Jack is not quite two, looks two and a half, and loves to march himself over to the biggest kids he can find and try to hold his own. </div>
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I like to think of this time as baby-toddler limbo. Jack is still a baby in a few ways. He still sleeps in a crib, potty-training is not even crossing our minds, and he cannot yet do so many of the "toddler activities" that you find on Pinterest boards and mommy blogs. However - he is a toddler. He walks, talks, helps when he can... </div>
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Recently we (Jack and I) had a conversation that went like this:</div>
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Then, yesterday, while looking at pictures on my phone he pointed at every picture of himself (recent pictures) and said, "baby!". </div>
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This limbo time is hard for a few reasons. Mostly discipline and age-appropriate activities. It's hard to stay developmentally correct without challenging them or putting them into situations that are setting them up to fail. </div>
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Jack is a short-tempered, strong-willed, sweet & snuggly, lover boy who gets M-A-D when he cannot figure something out yet bored in 2.3 seconds if something doesn't challenge him. </div>
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My goal this summer has been to try out something at least 3 days a week. So far, so good- challenging activities are saved for the privacy of our own home, and easy/"safe" (As in, safe from tantrums) activities turn into outings. <i>And, when all else fails, we just go to the park.</i> There have been a few ups and downs, but mostly I am excited about all the learning and fun we have been having in the last month!</div>
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I've decided to start a series called, "What to Do With Your Baby-Toddler" where I document our activities. Most of them are obvious but I thought it might be a good resource for other moms with baby-toddlers of their own who are stumped over what to do with their afternoon. </div>
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I get the tantrums, the hitting, and (GASP) Jack even bit me two weeks ago... but, as a good friend says to her toddler on the reg, "We are all learning". </div>
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Baking Cookies With Your Baby-Toddler</div>
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Going to the Play Place With Your Baby-Toddler</div>
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Working Out With Your Baby-Toddler</div>
Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-43342717404077253512013-05-24T14:35:00.000-04:002013-05-24T14:35:09.459-04:00Conversations With Jack - Vol. 1<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>womp, womp....</i>Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-39497745352275017522013-05-23T14:04:00.003-04:002013-05-23T14:04:32.591-04:00The New Normal<div style="text-align: justify;">
That whole blogging every day bit went out the window I suppose. We have been home from our Virgin Island vacation for over a week now and we are still settling into our new normal. </div>
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I have a few posts brewing in my head, including a vacation recap and a peak into Bubba and I's activity filled days. I must say, I am surprised at myself. I'm a different mom than I was a year ago, and I am have been having so much fun with Jack. </div>
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Things may seem sparse around these parts but it only means that we are busy over here filling up our summer with memories! </div>
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Until next time I will leave you with a few pictures my brother-in-law took on vacation. Trust me, there are plenty more to share! </div>
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Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-32318381105917669202013-05-09T08:00:00.000-04:002013-05-09T08:00:00.124-04:00Lovies<b style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 20px;">Day 9, Thursday:</b><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 20px;"> A moment in your day (this can be just a photo or both a photo and words)</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 20px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Jack LOVES lovies. Each night he is tucked in with TWO blankies, his "woof woof" (stuffed dog), and his baby. Each morning he wakes up and has to take each one with him downstairs. </span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I love watching him cuddle his lovies - he has a such a sweet and nurturing soul, as a parent I hope to foster that and help it to grow with him. </span></span></div>
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Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-63389616257441024892013-05-07T08:00:00.000-04:002013-05-07T08:00:07.788-04:00Loss<b style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 20px;">Day 7, Tuesday:</b><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 20px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 14px;">The thing(s) you're most afraid of</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: inherit; line-height: 14px;">What scares me most is losing those I love. I have seen death in many ways. In young and old, tragic and anticipated. I feel blessed enough to have those closest to me still with me here in this world. I also have faith that those who have left are in a place of endless love and comfort. However, I still get scared. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 13.993056297302246px;">My anxiety is one that I try to calm through prayer. I try to make each day count with my loved ones, I try to ensure that those close to me know and feel my love. </span></span><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 13.993056297302246px;">I do not get to choose or say who gets to stay here with me, I just get to trust!</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Yesterday I planned to block off our morning/early afternoon for a trip to the local playground, a "picnic" lunch, and some ice cream. I would love to say I thought up this special little adventure all on my own, but in reality it was a mom's group "meet up". </span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;">I tried the whole mom group thing when we first moved here. But Jack was too little to participate in most of the activities so it was a bust. This summer I thought it would be a great way to get us out and doing stuff when I am stumped/bored/longing for adult conversation. </span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;">So, yesterday... the "event" started at 10. I figured we could show up between 10:30 and 11, you know, fashionably late and all. But I dragged my feet. Excuse my language, but that shit is awkward. I really didn't want to go. I knew I <i>should</i> go, but, well, staying in my sweats sounded better. </span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;">I finally forced myself to get ready, pack a lunch for Jack and load into the car at 10 to noon. You should all be shocked that by the time I got there the playground was swamped (hello 80 degree weather in May in MICHIGAN). I couldn't tell who was the mom's group and who was "normal". </span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;">I followed Jack around the playground awkwardly toting my purse and his lunch bag. I would spot a potential "mom friend" and immediately become the most awkward human you have ever met. At one point I was standing next to another mom and Jack slammed his head into a metal pole and fell flat on his back. The mom next to me said "Oh!" all concerned like and I started laughing. Yup, I laughed. Then said, "Might as well laugh and see if he decides it's worth crying about." He didn't think it was worth it and moved on, and so did the other mom. <i>Whomp, whomp. </i></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 20px;">Making friends really makes me uncomfortable. I don't know why. I think I'm fine if I already know somebody, but on my own I just can't make it click. I will keep trying. Perhaps I will go <i>on time</i> to the next group meeting... but until then, I'll just be awkward mom in the corner- <i>heyyyyyyyy</i></span></div>
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Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-62343114636751036452013-05-02T09:53:00.001-04:002013-05-02T09:53:56.726-04:00I'm Good at Loving You<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 13.993056297302246px;">It's been a while since I've written just for you. I think there are a lot of things I do well, but the thing I do best? Love you. I may not be great at discipline or patience. I may not always be the best playmate or chef. Sometimes I fail you and I can only imagine that this will happen more and more as you get older, but just know that the best thing I do every day is love you. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 13.993056297302246px;">There really isn't much baby left on you. Other than that buddha belly you stick out with pride, any trace of baby fat has given way to little boy limbs and big boy attitude. Still, there has not been one day where you do not bring a smile to my face. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 13.993056297302246px;">This morning you climbed into my lap. You rested your head on my shoulder and tucked your legs into a tiny little pretzel shaped nugget of snuggles. We talked about our big trips coming up. You asked where Da-Da was. Then you pointed to me and said, "Mommy!" and pointed to yourself and said, "Jack!" I excitedly exclaimed "good job!" and "smart boy!"and you smiled and puffed out your chest a little in pride. I live for those moments. I hope to make you feel that way the rest of my days. </span></span></div>
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<b>Most of my readers know my story –
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I was born in the morning on a day in
mid May of 1989. I joined too older sisters, and my younger brother
followed 19 months later. My parents were (and still are) crazy in
love and showed me that marriage is beautiful yet hard, and so very
worth it. We lived in a faux small town in West Michigan where I
graduated with over 700 people. If you screwed up, the whole town
knew about it within 2 days. Growing up, I was sassy and outspoken. I
was once seen stomping around our backyard, alone, carrying a book
and saying “this is MY book, this will never be your book, it will
always be my book.” (remember the part of that story where I said I
was alone?) I didn't really come into my own until college. Those
first 18 years I managed. I attempted to be good at EVERY sport, but
my lack of coordination and short attention span for being
competitive made it a “just for fun” activity. I spent high
school singing in the choir and following around my boyfriend. After
“the worst break up ever” high school was over for me (too bad
that was when I was 16). I just wanted a fresh start and longed to
move away. College years were spent at the best place on Earth, MSU.
I could fill up an infinite amount of pages with words about the
friendships, bad decisions, and times to remember from college. It
all went by so fast! The biggest lesson I learned in that time is
that you don't always get to choose or plan. That lesson has more
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On Friday afternoon I turned in my keys and said goodbye to my role as "Adoption Worker". I ended my year peeking into the world of child welfare as intern extraordinaire and felt okay about closing that door.</div>
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My first year of grad school is over and it's more sweet than bitter. This wife/student/mama business is tough work, but I am grateful for the year of learning, friendship making, and relationship strengthening. Feeling this much closer to my personal career goals is pretty empowering.</div>
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But here we are. My first Monday as a stay-at-home-mama May to September. I've been in this role before, but it all feels a little different now. The 12-month-old baby I dreaded taking to day care is now a spirited almost 2-year-old with a lot of energy and even more mobility. </div>
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I'm terrified! I legit feel like I do not know how to do this anymore. Our first day has us thrown back into a bit of a time warp, where we are still in our jammies and the house is a hot mess. I am determined to not let me summer fill up with days like today! </div>
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We are hoping to start Jack in preschool this fall and that means structure in his life is going to take on a whole new meaning. So this SAHM life of mine will be dedicated to getting him ready, while having LOTS of fun along the way. </div>
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Zoo trips, museums, playgrounds, oh-my! We are going to do it all! Maybe I'll even make a mom friend (or two!) along the way... I want to fill up these days and months with smiles, laughter, and a lot of memories. </div>
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Keep an eye out for fun toddler activities that Jack and I will be trying out. Wish me luck as I brush off the cobwebs and embrace this full-time mama role once again! </div>
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<i>Okay, I saw Becky post about this and I knew I had to ask John to participate. Me from my husband's perspective? I couldn't resist the chance to see myself through his eyes - and I am not surprised that almost every fact he wrote had me laughing. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did :) </i></div>
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<b>1. The minute I wake up in the morning she takes over the entire bed, and not a single f**k will be given until Jack is up for the day.</b></div>
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<b>2. She insists I give her a kiss and tell her I love her before I leave for work, no matter how asleep she is, and she is furious if I forget. (she also kisses me and tells me she loves me, every morning, no matter how asleep she is)</b></div>
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<b>3. She never drinks her coffee hot, she waits at least 10-15 minutes before she will touch it... She likes her coffee lukewarm. Gross.</b></div>
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<b>4. She claims to wear something Pink everyday... and technically this is true. But only because she has a pink tattoo!!</b></div>
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<b>5. She has a 1 hour commute to school, which would absolutely kill me. She doesn't mind the drive though, apparently she had lots of road trips to her brother's hockey tournaments as a kid. She says I'm a wuss when I complain about my commute.</b></div>
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<b>6. I have never seen Kayla in class - but I can almost guarantee she is the girl in class that all the professors love, and everyone sitting in the back (me, in undergrad) just absolutely cannot stand. You know the type.</b></div>
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<b>8. A family member told us at a wedding last weekend that she had never seen two people who thought the other was so funny. Making Kayla laugh is one of my favorite things to do, and she makes me laugh everyday.</b></div>
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<b>9. Kayla will watch Oregon Vs. Louisville in the Sweet 16 if I will watch Lindsey Vs. Catherine on the Bachelor.</b></div>
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Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-24964792857904531552013-04-15T14:58:00.001-04:002013-04-15T15:02:05.739-04:00The Kind of Parent I Want to Be<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I'm in a human development class this semester. I've taken several of these types of classes before. As a psychology major in undergrad, learning the theories of Piaget and Erikson was interesting. Sometimes (often) I would apply these theories to my own life, but it all still felt so <i>abstract</i>.</div>
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Now, I am looking at it all through a parent lens. I question myself often. <i>Question myself as a mother</i>. Applying theories and techniques to the reality of my life as a parent sometimes has me leaving class with tight ball of anxiety at the pitt of my stomach. Am I doing the right things by my child? Am I nurturing him and disciplining him in a way that will help him to reach his full physical, cognitive, social, and emotional development potential?</div>
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So I thought it was time - time to sit down, think, and record the kind of parent I <i>want</i> to be. I feel like I often fail myself and fail Jack by not being the parent I want to be. I'm tired or busy... there are one million excuses to "let things slide", but does my child get to pay the consequences? I know I cannot be perfect, but I refuse to sop actively bettering myself for my family. </div>
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<i>The kind of parent I want to be is patient</i>. I believe in structure. Bed times, bath times, nap times, etc. I believe that when Jack knows how his day is going to go, anxiety and room for uncertainty can be lessened. This is something that will always benefit him. No matter what happens in school or anywhere else, home is consistency and comfort. At the same time, I want to be fluid and patient among this structure. Things happen, frustration happens, tantrums happen - I want to be patient and allow my child to grow and learn. </div>
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<i>The kind of parent I want to be is understanding. </i>I don't want to have unrealistic expectations of what Jack should be able to know or do. I don't want to set my child up to fail because I am not properly informed of what he can and cannot know, understand, or do. </div>
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<i>The kind of parent I want to be is present</i>. This is hard. I have my own things going on and checking out is so easy - but my life and world outside of home is not Jack's (or John's) problem. My child deserves my presence. Getting frustrated or annoyed because there is not one second of quiet is unfair. I want babies, children, teens, etc. to know that their mom is there, present, listening, seeking to understand, and accepting them. </div>
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<i>The kind of parent I want to be is calm</i>. Yelling - It's so easy. It's an instant release of frustration. But I am a model. I cannot get mad at Jack (at any point in his life) for behaving in ways that I, myself, do as well. When Jack yells "no" in my face I can't really get upset if I am guilty of doing the same to him. I have to teach him respect through my actions. Showing Jack, John, myself, and others respect is the only way my child will learn the true meaning of respect. </div>
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Maybe this list is too short. Maybe striving to be a patient, understanding, present, and calm parent isn't enough. But if I can check those things off in every word, action, and gesture toward my son my hope is that he will know and feel my unwavering, constant, and unconditional love. </div>
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Being a parent just keeps getting harder, yet more rewarding every day. </div>
Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-59984241387557951582013-04-14T18:10:00.002-04:002013-04-14T18:10:27.536-04:00Ch- Ch- Changes!You may have noticed "Life After..." got a little makeover. I was in want of something simple and soft so I eliminated the busy menu bar and went with quiet peaceful colors. Here's hoping that this change helps this space to inspire me again! Happy Sunday friends :)Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16356633490954249660noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1490098567697247916.post-66830423936640147442013-04-10T21:10:00.000-04:002013-04-10T21:10:09.295-04:00That One Time...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The solution? A new look and a new philosophy. It's simple really - this place is about marriage, motherhood, and my perspective on it all. I hope you will continue to follow along. It may not be 5 days a week (or even 3) but it will be real and honest and <i>me</i>.</center>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-size: x-small;"><b>womp, womp. This totally didn't happen... this goal is being carried right on over!</b></span></center>
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<b>+Spend <i>active </i>one-on-one time with John at least once a week</b></center>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-size: x-small;"><b>I'm not checking this one off because there is DEFINITELY still some room for improvement!</b></span></center>
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<b><strike>+Unplug MORE</strike></b></center>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-size: x-small;"><b><a href="http://www.lifeafterblog.com/2013/02/addicted.html">Giving up Twitter/IG</a> for Lent has really helped with this! </b></span></center>
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<b><strike>+Try new things (go places) with Jack</strike></b></center>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-size: x-small;"><b>I will need to blog about our big trip to Minneapolis ASAP! </b></span></center>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><b>Now onto a blank slate (1.5 weeks in...)</b></span></center>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Only order food/eat out ONCE per week</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Save $500</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Make our bed every day!</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Plan blog posts ahead of time</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Restructure/redesign this blog</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Update my blog Facebook Page</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Organize Jack's baby clothes</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #666666;"><b><i>+Spend more one on one time with John :)</i></b></span></div>
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Yesterday, you greeted us with sunshine and warmer weather. </center>
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You begged us to open our windows, and let the fresh air pour through our home.</center>
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You invited us to break out the stroller and take a walk to the park. You invited us to laughter and running and rosy red cheeks.</center>
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You smelled <i>divine</i>. </center>
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You serenaded us with sweet birds and cool breezes. </center>
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We know it may be a few weeks until you are with us for good - but, dear spring, we loved you! </center>
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<i>Happy Monday</i></center>
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