So after Christmas my mom started getting on me about the amount of time I spend on my phone. I kind of shrugged it off, like, whatever (teenager moment). But then I started to pay attention.
Was I still interacting with Jack? Making sure he was hitting all of his brilliant baby milestones? Yes and yes. But was I doing it all with my hand attached to my phone like it was a part of my body? Always.
So then Ash Wednesday sort of just snuck up on me. The whole, "what are you giving up for Lent this year?" question started popping up and in my mind I was all, "whoa, chill, we still have a while to think about it." When it reality I had 2 days to think about it.
I am the first to admit I got a little judgy about the whole giving up sweets and whatnot b.s. because I felt like so often people give things up for Lent that are really just ways for them to further their weight loss goals by slapping some "Jesus guilt" onto it. So I always have tried to think of something that isn't like that... this year, giving up social media was what was on my heart. I got scared. I tried to think of something else. But I couldn't, because I knew my fear of giving it up was just my addiction talking.
So I thought about it more, got my sister on board, and made it final. Goodbye Instagram and Twitter for 40 days (minus Sundays).
And it's real life. I have found myself using Facebook more than I have in 2 years. And honestly, I think it's because I am addicted to just CHECKING my phone.
I miss the connection. I feel like I am missing out on things. Especially in terms of "blog world". Someone could announce a pregnancy, a birth, or an engagement and I AM MISSING IT!
And then I have to think... how ridiculous. Yes, Instagram and Twitter are fun, they help you feel connected to people and are great for that! But to be addicted? I am annoyed with myself about this.
So I got judgy, but then I had to realize that my giving up of social media is no more noble than giving up ice cream. I am still trying to make myself better with God in mind. It was just another reminder to leave the judging to the big guy...
SO one week down... how I will survive - it is still unknown!